I feel confused and upset. I can't begin to make sense of it all, I don't think I want to try any more. I think I want to give in to feelings and emotions and gut instinct and just ask for some give, some fallability. Not because they're wrong, no, mostly because they're just right. I want to have a valid opinion, I want to be accepted, I want to feel like I have input, I want to contribute.
At the moment I just feel like I hold back, I hinder. It isn't doing my self-confidence any good - I have this horrid feeling I should break down my character, analyse it and rebuild it. I feel like my fundamentals have been attacked, although that's daft.
I think I just feel uncentered.