Today I have if not resolution then a plan of action for tackling some of the more immediate ones, but the others still remain:
- My last post made me sound concerned only about money. Although I know what I mean, it started a line of questioning of my motives and goals.
- I started thinking about stuff I'm doing at work, which is a million miles away from anything outside it. Business process improvement, arguing about who owns the concept of a process of something intangible.. it's all too ethereal and insubstantial. (Perhaps it's my inner techy rebelling before my pointy-hair comes into full force..?)
- This was further reinforced by watching American Inventor last night, which had a clip of what amounts to a commune in/around San Francisco, where people were having a good old sing-song and knees-up. They looked happy. I wondered where all my efforts were taking me.. but I am actually happy, or think I am. This is the most I've enjoyed my career to date - what I've always really wanted is to feel like I'm making a difference. Not a million miles from what environmentalists want really, just in a capitalist environment rather than a natural one.
I got interrupted halfway through writing this post so it's rather disjointed, but I wanted to note down my thoughts and feelings.
Poker tonight; let's have some fun :)