July 4th, 2002

nice fish

*Large sigh*

Tuesday was boring and went agonisingly slowly. I was of course waiting to go round and see kissycat1000. Got round and spent the evening with kissycat1000's friend Louisa who I think was having a case of TMI. We were drinking but she wasn't as she had to drive home.. ah well. It was a good laugh :)

Wednesday morning I rebuilt Jordan's PC and started making images of his games so breaking the CDs wouldn't matter so much. It's a bit of an uphill struggle as they're already pretty scratched and making images of them is a bit hit-and-miss.

After a nice meal on Wednesday night I got a bit drunk and spoke to kissycat1000 about something which I wouldn't normally have done, and it upset us both a lot. I did it with the best intentions at heart but being such a sensitive subject it came across all wrong.

I nearly left the next morning without saying anything due to my horribly mixed up feelings on the matter but managed to force myself to do something before I did leave. I ended up staying until gone 10am and we managed to straighten things out somewhat. Some of the reason for forcing myself to attempt to sort it out when it was all still really raw was that it was in my mind I won't see kissycat1000 until Sunday. It was very difficult to say anything and make sure it was kind and what I actually meant when my feelings were still so churned up.

I feel OK now, just exhausted and not very sociable. The day is dull and miserable and going slowly again - I just want to go home and sleep/relax.
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nice fish

Pressing on...

Work is.. non-existant. I am able to sit and do no work most if not all of the time. This is very demoralising, in addition to the other events at this company. There is no work as such to do where I am; we're waiting for the only client this place services to sort out it's project load and decide what needs doing.

I could be doing a few things including brushing up on my Solaris to get the Sysadmin certificate but to be honest I'm just not feeling motivated to do them. I will do at some point.

The other thing that sealed it for me was I saw that Logica shares are down to 190p. This is pitiful. My immediate thoughts were to get off this sinking ship - so I will soon redouble my efforts to get a different job, preferably in Cheltenham, that pays me what I'm worth, with prospects.
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