blahOne of the inability to deal with things episodes I had with
kissycat1000 recently got me thinking. I know I'm quite different to 'normal' people, but I was able to quantify another way. I don't bother thinking about things that don't interest me, if I've deemed them unimportant. For example, I had been carrying my bits and pieces around in a white plastic Sainsbury's bag. You know, one of the crinkley ones. I knew in the back of my mind that a white crinkley Sainsbury's bag is not the height of fashion or even vaguely passable, but somehow I refused to care about it. It served its purpose of keeping my sh1t together and stopping it from getting wet, and that was about all I cared about. I was with it enough to stow it mostly out of sight at work as well.When confronted with its unpleasentness and suggestions of a better bag to use were made I realised the reason I hadn't was.. well.. it Just Didn't Matter. To me, at least. Getting a better bag involved going shopping, which I detest, and spending money, which I detest doing even more, if its on things I don't really want. If I was going to go out to buy a bag I would not be satisfied until I had found the right bag for me, which would involve far more effort, time and thought and probably money than I was prepared to give the matter. So instead I simply refused to care about it.
Odd how my brain works isn't it?
Where is the line that normal people draw; where do they decide they don't like something enough to do something about it? Do they let things annoy them into doing something about it? I could understand if it was something I cared about, like the form of a computer program or sound of a hifi or something. Do other people simply refuse to care about something? I realise a few geeks think similarly; it's apparent in some of their decision making processes.
It's served a good purpose in my life. Indeed, some people find how I ignore some trivia refreshing. Sometimes those same people find it insanely irritating too. However I recognise that I've always gone through life ignoring the details for now, trying to get the big picture right and imagining I can fill in the details later. This has allowed me to prioritise effectively but it's hindered me from fully enjoying all of my life at present - I've simply refused to care about it.
Argh, enough waffle for now.
